Yesterday was blissful. HE called me in the evening, asking me if I want to join him for dinner. Of course I agreed. Rushed to finish off my work and sped off in a taxi to the other island called Sentosa. Only to realise when I was there that he had just had to go for a meeting.Patiently, I waited. Walked round the resort till I think I look very familiar to those Bangladesh people and also some others. Till the extend that I was approached to ask why I am there.Slightly after an hour, he called and we begin our stroll for dinner. Was disturbed again by his staff. Left without a choice, I went on my own, to look for food. At that late a time, all were closed except for 7-11. Decided to head out for dinner after he finish work. Bought a drink for each of us before heading back to the resort.Again, waited patiently. Went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner before heading for a night out with only the two of us. Blissed. I was determined to show him how much he meant to me.Expect to have more of this, only to be disappointed upon hearing that he is on the mid-night shift for quite sometime. This may sound like a fairy-tale. But it is a real-life story.If only it could just go on... and on... and on...We could have made it actually. Not surprise if a kid is tagged along.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
8:08 PM
It was meant to be a happy evening. On the surface, it was just to collect back my ATM card from HIM. But deep inside, we just wanted a little more of each other.
All was fine actually, until towards the end. Playfully, he burped in front of my face, my nose. Me, in my subconscious state, seriously, gave him a slap. It landed me in deep shit. He blew his top. Thinking back, it was to be expected. I must have hurt him deep.
Sorry baby.
At times, when we fight, I would begin to wonder, "Does this menas we are not meant to be anymore?" Still, I would believe it is because of me, always taking him for granted. That is because, I have not received such love he provided me with, from anyone else before.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
9:48 PM